Solitaire

Solitaire is a song I wrote about my late mother. Now that my mother has passed away peacefully at the ripe old age of 89. I can express myself more fully about what went on in our house growing up. The featured images I chose for this blog post is a photo of my mom. It is a black and white photo I touched it up with the help of AI. I gave her devil’s horns and an upside down cross for a purpose. My mother was very narcissistic and was always right never wrong. She was a devout Roman Catholic. Some would say that mom would turn in her grave if she ever knew what I was up to these days. I say let her turn in her grave. As a devout Roman Catholic my mother was satanic. She did not know she was that way but she was. She said terrible things to me growing up. She was terribly abusive but managed somehow to keep up appearances with the public. The neighbors ignored the abuse that went on in our home. Our house could be very loud at times. I’ll never forget the day my mother sent me to confession to confess to a strange man in black a Roman Catholic priest my sins. My sin was that my older brother was molesting me and somehow in mom’s twisted mind that was my fault. A sin that I needed to confess. The way I was raised was very messed up. I’ll never forget my first unholy communion. I call it that now it is known as your first holy communion. My mother spent the night before pulling my hair so hard I cried. My head hurt so much I had a splitting headache. She was putting my hair in curlers for the big day. On that day I marched down the isle of satanic Ireland in a white dress and veil with my brother’s dried semen on my private part. I forgot my candle and got a severe beating that left me black and blue with bruises for forgetting the damned candle. I am convinced my mother was in an industrial school as a child in Ireland. None of us in my family really know because she never talked about it. She talked about the mother baby homes. But she never talked much about her own schooling. I will continue to write songs about my mother because that is helping me to heal. I no longer identify as Christian because I find many Christians to be two faced and fake. I am on my own journey now. I consider myself a Druidess where I get to embrace the parts of Christianity that I respect and the only part I respect is the story of Jesus Christ. I also get to embrace Luciferianism. I pray to both God and Lucifer who is the devil according to the Bible which I do not trust. I do not trust a King James Bible after all look at the source. King James was not great. I do not respect the Bible’s out of England and certainly not the King James version. Thank you for reading this blog post and I hope you enjoy my latest song titled Solitaire...My song titled How I pray sums up how I feel about religion in general. I am tired of religion and choose to follow my own sacred path.