Enabling a narcissist

It took me years to sort out my narcissistic sister. My sister gets a kick out of me being upset. Instead of trying to remedy or calm me down she will call me names and make me more upset. That is if I let her. For years I allowed this. I was enabling my sister. You see I would become angry because she never takes accountability for things she did in the past. I would end up yelling then I would need to apologize for yelling. She gets to remain a saint on a pedestal forgiving me my offenses forgetting that she too has offended me. She does very well in her profession as a nurse. She has built a good life for herself. I finally sorted her out and realized I am better off without her in my life. She lives far enough away that I don’t have to worry about her stopping by unannounced. She never bothered to visit me when I lived closer to her she certainly would not visit me now. She said she would but when it comes down to it she would not. She is not sincere at all and lies all the time. If you cannot be honest there is no relationship. No future. I’m grateful I sorted both my sisters out. My other sister is the same way. She only wanted to hear from me once a month. It was very one sided with me doing all the outreach. That gets tiring. I do spiritual exercises so I put a hex on both of my sisters this was a great outlet for my anger my outrage over the hell they both put me through over the years. I don’t concern myself with whether or not the hex will work I’m just glad I could do it. In my studies of the left hand path and satanism. The books say not to worry about the outcome when we do spiritual work. I am presently reading The Devil’s Notebook by Anton Szandor LaVey. It is a good read. A song I wrote a few years ago titled Flying Monkey describes how I feel about dealing with narcissists. I am no longer enabling my sisters I feel better about that. I am simply getting on with my life and I do not wish them well because they hated me first now I hate them worse. My song Steeple is my version of the song Beautiful People by Marilyn Manson. That song resonates with me. In Steeple I change the lyrics to say when dealing with narcissists it is hard to be clean. Thank you for reading this blog post.

Steeple

Beautiful People by Marilyn Manson